Just in case anyone reads this, just so you know, I'm not writing it for you.  
A day in the life of me is, well in the simplest terms, boring or even depressing.  I'm overweight, not by much in real life but to me I look like a cow.  I've never been attractive.  Its gotten to some points where I tell myself, if I could just get rid of this acne and these huge pores I wouldn't look so bad, even though I don't have much at all.  I've never been that girl that walks into the room and every guy has to stop and take in the sight of her, whether in lustful eyes or not.  Sad thing is I have to feel shallow for wanting this because I don't care for "love", it's too complicated anyways.  I just want to be one of the ones who could have any guy in the room if she wanted to, the kind that someone attractive will come up and talk to, the kind that can have self confidence because everyone gives her a reason to without them having to tell her.   I would get plastic surgery in a second and workout all day long if my day wasn't full of work then school.  I do anything to be that person, but I know I never will be so I deal with it and go along with my day.

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